Dear Alex Auld

I saw the game last night so I saw the "oh $hit" moment ya had that led to a Canuck goal.  I want you to forget about it.... shake it off... and move on to the next game.  It happens and it happens to EVERYONE.  Hell, you've been watching Turks all season so you know exactly what I'm sayin to ya here.  I saw the disappointment in your eyes...I felt so bad for you and it tripped my goalie mom trigger so I had the urge to make cookies and get you a Hello Kitty blankie but...I digress. 

 

I know you have the spotlight on you right now to get the job done for the Stars and you want to do good, I get it.  You got this.  You go out there and you do what you know how to do and laugh it off cuz its over and done.  It was a regular season game and before the Olympic break so really, shake it off and come back stronger the next game.  We still believe in you, Auldie, so don't even worry about that just go out there and kick butt! 

 

Ooooh and one more thing.... you focus on YOU.  I say that in case anyone happens to be acting like a big ole sour puss right now cuz he's riding the pine.  *ahem*   He did not use to be that way, I honestly do not know what has happened. 

I'm officially panicking now....

It has been a while since I've read the hockey trade rumors on Spector's site ( www.spectorshockey.net ) and what do I stumble up on today???

 

This:

 

DALLASNEWS.COM: Mike Heika reports Stars GM Joe Nieuwendyk is frustrated over his team's poor performance of late but after meeting with his staff believes it's best to allow his current roster to play its way out of its current woes. Nieuwendyk has been considering potential trades but ultimately he doesn't believe there's currently anything out there which can help the club, which is built on its current budget and that isn't going to change. Heika also reported on Steve Ott's contract talks with the club, which he claimed are cordial as Ott wants to remain in Dallas but it's difficult to define his worth right now.

SPECTOR'S NOTE: That's not to suggest the Stars won't make any trades but currently there's little available in the market to help them. It could be at least another month before such an opportunity arises and even then that's no guarantee of improvement. As for Ott the Stars obviously want to keep him but if his asking price proves too steep they'll focus on other issues and look elsewhere. Goalie Marty Turco has been struggling and Nieuwendyk could decide in the off-season it's more important to replace him than to retain Ott.

 

Nieuwy, you listen to me and you listen good.  You will keep Otter.  You can have someone talk Modano into finally retiring and ship Turco off to somewhere else to run his mouth (and this actually pains me to say as I heart the Marty but he has disappointed me with his 'tude and his new-found fishy flop play -- which IS NOT WORKING!!)  but do NOT even let there be a slight implication that Ott will not be resigned by the Stars cuz dude, you do not even know pissed off.  People here love him and they'll HATE you to the tune of not resting til you are run out of town to go hide with Barry Switzer in some God forsaken place like Oklahoma if you go and do something stupid like not resign Ott.  He wants to stay.  We need him. 

Remember when that dumbass Armstrong was the GM here and we had the ever fabulous Jason Arnott?  He wanted to stay here too.  What did that assclown Armstrong do?  He did not resign Arnott so he could sign that washed up overly concussed has-been Eric Lindros.  (OMG my blood pressure just went up a good 15 pts)  Arnott went to Nashville where he's now their CAPTAIN and has torn it the F up there.  He coulda kept tearin it the F up here. 

Seriously... dont be Doug Armstrong.  Plus I'll make YOU explain to my 11yo why her Otter had to go away.  She's good and hormonal at this age.... oh and she's a GOALIE.  You really want to have to do that?  I'm thinkin no.  An 11yo goalie with PMS... Just sayin :)

That is all.

CuJo to say Goodbye to the NHL on Tuesday....

http://www.tsn.ca/nhl/story/?id=305489#YourCallTop

 

 

*tearing up*  I have already starting missing you, CuJo.  You were a great goalie!!  I hope you'll stay in the hockey world!  Hey, the Stars need a goalie coach!!  :)   hehe  

Soooo I'm looking thru The Observer...

and I had to do a double take because as I'm looking at who is going to be playing at Nokia Theater in the near future I see the following:

 

Gabriel Iglesias - cool, he's a funny bastard!

Owl City - hate that stupid Fireflies song and pretty sure I'd rather rip off my own fingernails than sit through a set of Owl frickin City

then I see.... David Cassidy & special guest Davy Jones

 

wait...WHAT?! 

 

I look again.  No, not a typo and there's a picture of David freakin Cassidy and Davy Jones.  Hello?  Is this sponsored by Metamucil? Centrum Silver?  The Scooter Store? 

 

Wow.  I've seen 3 Doors Down, Saliva, Seether and other great bands at Nokia...and now???  David Cassidy & Davy Jones are playing there?  REALLLLLLLLY??????

 

I may need a valium. 

Ooooh Marty....

You don't like Sean Avery.  I get it, a lot of people don't.  However, considering some of the things you trashed him for last year - and quite vocally I might add... I'd say you kinda shit and fell back in it with your remarks after last night's game.  Harsh, dude....but kudos on making Avery's night a stellar one!  You know it was sweet for him to play his ass off against a team who treated him sooooooo bad but hey, interesting that he was on the ice with the two teams who are paying him right now!  And it is a contract year for someone (uhhh YOU).... just sayin. 

 

What has happened to you, Turks?  I expect more from you.  Stop wasting time on drama and get your head back in the game and play like we know you can or this may be your last season in Dallas.  I'd hate to see that happen but it is starting to look like a real possibility.  You just became what you claimed to hate about Sean all while he tore it up and kinda owned you last night.  Now how are you feeling about that "delinquent" comment???  

 

[source for below info: http://bleacherreport.com/tb/b2lQc ]

But even more telling was Marty Turco's words about Sean Avery, which Andrew Gross had in his post-game wrap-up at Rangers Rants:

"I would have loved to have seen that delinquent do that for us last year," Turco said. "I didn't think it possible. He has a good shot and he's always worked hard. His intelligence on the ice has always been an issue and was with us when he was here."

…Woah there, Marty. While Turco was one of the Stars who couldn't wait to get rid of Avery, calling him a 'delinquent' is a bit harsh. As it is, Turco looked unsteady and unconfident in the net last night, giving up some huge rebounds, and the Rangers took full advantage of it, which is all that matters.  Maybe that played a part in his comments. Either way, it's nice to see Avery get revenge on the Stars, and Turco, in particular.

and now for something funny.....

randomness

I'm tired. 

I'm completely drained.

I want to not be a complete hermit but it seems as though I have managed to isolate myself from just about everyone.  Ok, I get it..my own fault.

Why is it that when I need people the most I am totally unable to speak up or ask for help/support?? What is up with that?  That is messed up and not even in the same zip code as normal...plus it has just grown really REALLY old.

I do not want to bury every feeling and/or emotion but the process of learning to NOT do that is so overwhelmingly difficult that I'm not sure I can do it at this point.  Hi, rock. Hi, hard place.  And hellllo bat shit crazy. 

Sometimes I am angry because I feel unappreciated (yeah, join the crowd - I know).  Honestly, angry is not the right word ...its really more hurt but hurt isnt something I've allowed myself to feel for a really long time.  Anger I allow, hurt I don't so much. 

I figured out recently that I actually fear happiness.  Ummmm WTF?! 

Crikey.... no wonder I'm a mess. 

Late Night Post From My Phone

Trying to blog every day. Some posts may be short but at least i'm trying to establish the habit. I dont really want to blog but I need to blog. Sooo...here I am.

(comment after initial post -- I posted this from my cell phone last night but had to come in and edit a bit cuz it broke it out into 2 posts.  Apparently there is a char limit when posting from my phone.  At least I know now haha)

1st post from my phone...

Insomnia. Anxiety. Isolation. These are not a few of my favorite things.